Don’t wait another minute

July 2024

Wage peace with your breath.
Breathe in firemen and rubble,
breathe out whole buildings and flocks of red wing blackbirds.
Breathe in terrorists and breathe out sleeping children and fresh mown
fields.

Breathe in confusion and breathe out maple trees.
Breathe in the fallen and breathe out lifelong friendships intact.
Wage peace with your listening: hearing sirens, pray loud.
Remember your tools: flower seeds, clothes pins, clean rivers.
Make soup.

Play music, learn the word for thank you in three languages.
Learn to knit, and make a hat.
Think of chaos as dancing raspberries,
imagine grief as the outbreath of beauty or the gesture of fish.
Swim for the other side.
Wage peace.

Never has the world seemed so fresh and precious.
Have a cup of tea and rejoice.
Act as if armistice has already arrived.
Don’t wait another minute.
- Mary Oliver

the same kind of mercy

May 2024

She asks me to kill the spider.
Instead, I get the most
peaceful weapons I can find.

I take a cup and a napkin.
I catch the spider, put it outside
and allow it to walk away.

If I am ever caught in the wrong place
at the wrong time, just being alive
and not bothering anyone,

I hope I am greeted
with the same kind
of mercy.
~Rudy Francisco

Wage Peace

April 2024

“Wage Peace” 

Wage peace with your breath.
Breathe in firemen and rubble,
breathe out whole buildings and flocks of red wing blackbirds.
Breathe in terrorists and breathe out sleeping children and fresh mown
fields.

Breathe in confusion and breathe out maple trees.
Breathe in the fallen and breathe out lifelong friendships intact.
Wage peace with your listening: hearing sirens, pray loud.
Remember your tools: flower seeds, clothes pins, clean rivers.
Make soup.

Play music, learn the word for thank you in three languages.
Learn to knit, and make a hat.
Think of chaos as dancing raspberries,
imagine grief as the outbreath of beauty or the gesture of fish.
Swim for the other side.
Wage peace.

Never has the world seemed so fresh and precious.
Have a cup of tea and rejoice.
Act as if armistice has already arrived.
Don’t wait another minute.
--Mary Oliver

coming for to carry me here

February 2024

Poem in Thanks
Lord Whoever, thank you for this air
I'm about to in- and exhale, this hutch
in the woods, the wood for fire,
the light -- both lamp and the natural stuff
of leaf-black, fern, and wing.
For the piano, the shovel
for ashes, the moth-gnawed
blankets, the stone-cold water
stone-cold: thank you.
Thank you, Lord, coming for
to carry me here -- where I'll gnash
it out, Lord, where I'll calm
and work, Lord, thank you
for the goddamn birds singing!
     -- Thomas Lux

a self is a self

September 2023

The Ideal
This is where I came from.
I passed this way.
This should not be shameful
or hard to say.

A self is a self.
It is not a screen.
A person should respect
what he has been.

This is my past
which I shall not discard.
This is the ideal.
This is hard.
-James Fenton (1983)

The Guest House

August 2023

The Guest House

This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.

A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.

The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.

Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.

Rumi

that’s why we wake and look out

July 2023

Yes

It could happen any time, tornado,
earthquake, Armageddon. It could happen.
Or sunshine, love, salvation.

It could, you know. That's why we wake
and look out -- no guarantees
in this life.

But some bonuses, like morning,
like right now, like noon,
like evening.

--William Stafford

and there was a new voice

May 2023

The Journey
One day you finally knew 
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice --
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
"Mend my life!"
each voice cried.
But you didn't stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their meloncholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do --
determined to save
the only life you could save.
-- Mary Oliver

rebirth

April 2023

there will be moments when
you will bloom fully and then
wilt, only to bloom again.
if we can learn anything from
flowers it is that resilience is born
even when we feel like we are
dying.
-Alex Elle

don’t hesitate

February 2023

If you suddenly and unexpectedly feel joy,
don’t hesitate. Give in to it. There are plenty
of lives and whole towns destroyed or about
to be. We are not wise, and not very often
kind. And much can never be redeemed.
Still, life has some possibility left. Perhaps this
is its way of fighting back, that sometimes
something happens better than all the riches
or power in the world. It could be anything,
but very likely you notice it in the instant
when love begins. Anyway, that’s often the
case. Anyway, whatever it is, don’t be afraid
of its plenty. Joy is not made to be a crumb.

by Mary Oliver

which is all I know

January 2023

...And I have become the child of the clouds, and of hope.
I have become the friend of the enemy, whoever that is.
I have become older and, cherishing what I have learned,
I have become younger.

And what do I risk to tell you this, which is all I know?
Love yourself. Then forget it. Then, love the world.

Mary Oliver

taking the world into my arms

November 2022

When Death Comes

When death comes
like the hungry bear in autumn;
when death comes and takes all the bright coins from
his purse

to buy me, and snaps his purse shut;
when death comes
like the measle-pox

when death comes
like an iceburg between the shoulder blades,

I want to step through the door with curiosity,
wondering:
what is it going to be like, that cottage of darkness?

And therefore I look upon everything
as a brotherhood and a sisterhood,
and I look upon time as no more than an idea,
and I consider eternity as another possibility,

and I think of each life as a flower, as common
as a field daisy, and as singular,

and each name a comfortable music in the mouth,
tending, as all music does, toward silence,

and each body a lion of courage, and something
precious to the earth.

When it's over, I want to say all my life
I was a bride married to amazement.
I was the bridegroom, taking the world into my arms.

When it's over, I don't want to wonder
If I have made of my life something particular, and
real.

I don't want to find myself sighing and frightened,
or full of argument.

I don't want to end up simply having visited
this world

Mary Oliver

what you missed

September 2022

What You Missed That Day You
Were Absent from Fourth Grade

Mrs. Nelson explained how to stand still and listen
to the wind, how to find meaning in pumping gas,

how peeling potatoes can be a form of prayer. She took
questions on how not to feel lost in the dark

After lunch she distributed worksheets
that covered ways to remember your grandfather's

voice. Then the class discussed falling asleep
without feeling you had forgotten to do something else-

something important- and how to believe
the house you wake in is your home. This prompted

Mrs. Nelson to draw a chalkboard diagram detailing
how to chant the Psalms during cigarette breaks,

and how not to squirm for sound when your own thoughts
are all you hear; also, that you have enough.

The English lesson was that I am
is a complete sentence.

And just before the afternoon bell, she made the math equation
look easy. The one that proves that hundreds of questions,

and feeling cold, and all those nights spent looking
for whatever it was you lost, and one person

add up to something.

-  Brad Aaron Modlin

and this old world is a new world

Guled and Ian are beautiful on Saturday night
if we love each other
God lives in us
portrait at Tops
Joanne loves cats
mom's kitchen window
West Side kids
at Gypsy Parlor
Mo and I are in the same boat
Five Points Bakery
Pat and Teo
Mack
West Side's finest
my wonderful neighbors
on Winter Street
Kan is a teacher
Anne, Allen, and Moseby
Rick's first car, he was 15 when he got her
Giang
a bloody mary at Five Points
I love you to death
Russ the Hustler and Shelly
Shelly
Ronnell
West Side Pride
Rayquon
Buffalo love
Buffalo love
on Chenango Street
on Chenango Street
fun on Grant Street
upside down
Buffalo love
Buffalo love
on Winter Street
Happy Birthday!
at Hoyt Lake
Queen Anne's Lace
wedding at Hoyt Lake
imagine if they all looked up at me
Buffalo love
Muhammad's daughter
on Hampshire Street
Chuck
Chuck
West Utica
Class Act on Elmwood Avenue
on Grant Street
Black Eyed Susans at night
Buffalo Herd
on Pooley Street
brothers on Pooley Street
sisters on Pooley Street
on Pooley Street
Ronnell
Gio and Nilda
on Grant Street
on Grant Street
Gypsy Parlor
on Allen Street
at Nietzsche's
Pablo and Josh
Jamie, Sara, and Layla
at Mass Ave Park
at Black Monarchy
at Towne Motor Car
Luis and his son
family portrait
her prized possession
Eski
on Elmwood Avenue
tattoo parlor
Andy on his way to Olean
on Allen Street
Angie at work
Erie County Fair
Erie County Fair
Erie County Fair
Erie County Fair
Erie County Fair
Erie County Fair
Erie County Fair
Erie County Fair
Erie County Fair
Essex Street Pub
Chenango Street
Colonial Circle
the beautiful Olivia
Ace
on Chenango
dad I love you
fun kid
Essex Street Pub
Nicole and Amanda
at Bridget's house
at Bridget's House
Canisius College
Canisius College
moving in
moon
car
Lubna's tattoo
girls out
construction on Elmwood
Shana
Farrow
boys out on Grant Street
on Pooley Street
on Pooley Street
on Pooley Street
on Pooley Street
going places on Grant Street
on Grant Street
friends on Pooley Street
friends on Pooley Street
sisters on Pooley Street
phone
Mister Softee
Mister Softee
sprinkles in the air
Mister Softee
on Pooley Street
on Pooley Street
on Pooley Street
Essex Street art
on Pooley Street
on Pooley Street
on Pooley Street
on Pooley Street
on Pooley Street
tattoo
Jimmy Mac's
Jimmy Mac's
Jimmy Mac's
Swa and Swa
Swa and Swa
Swa and Swa
Swa
Military Road
Military Road
Hertel Avenue
Matt
on West Ferry
cat at King Tire
King Tire
King Tire
Buffalo love
Andy on Military Road
on Ashland Avenue
24 Hour Store
Darnell gave me some great advice
on Pooley Street
Pablo getting his ass kicked
dad I love you
Buddy

the heart crosses it

July 2022

“The mind creates the abyss. The heart crosses it.” Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj

Jennifer and Shelly
Grace laughing
8th anniversary
Gabe and Mike
Family at the laundromat
Fire escape shadows
I heart you
Working on his blog
Grace smiling
tire inspection, Hoyt Lake
Jennifer and Shelly
Shadow self portrait
beautiful tires
Tom and Dale on Hertel
Buffalo teenagers
Buffalo teenagers
night basketball on Grant Street
night basketball on Grant Street
Nate and Amanda
Lisa
Miss J Kiss
my son up top, my mom down below
Ronnell misses his mother so much
You can say that again!
Shadow self portrait
Yalisa, Carlisle, and Anne Marie
Grant Street at night
Kyle
Self portrait with Kyle
Sean has a kind heart and knows so much
Friends celebrating her birthday
Champ and friends
Champ and friends
Huffy Sea Pines
Five Points fig tree
Grant Street bus stop early a.m.
we love dogs
Portrait of Pat and Gina
surprise color
travelin through
Toyota at night
Josh and Eski
surprise color
surprise color
surprise color
night skate
Hoyt Lake
shadow self portrait
on Grant Street
on Grant Street
Sweet Sound Music
You can say that again!
shadows
porch portrait
Ruben
west side pride
boy with chips
friends
Monday night fire spinners
fire spinners
fire spinner watching me
take one of me
take one of me
Queen Anne’s Lace
I love South Buffalo
I love South Buffalo
corner store
I’ll give you something beautiful
friends out
Five Points Bakery at night
surprise color
Talulah
Ivy and her motorcycle
Ivy
Lake Erie from the Outer Harbor
Flying kites
Kite
Kite!
enjoying the Outer Harbor
enjoying the Outer Harbor
enjoying the Outer Harbor
enjoying the Outer Harbor
Pacha enjoying the Outer Harbor
enjoying the Outer Harbor
Harley the dog enjoying the Outer Harbor
Nicole and Amanda right before s’mores
corner store
Marcus and Chester
porch portrait
surprise color
my family at home
portrait of Nina
surprise color
self portrait
garage portrait
Boutros
surprise color
I hope you know how loved you are (next door to Tops)
Erica and her son
Mosh and Aurora

So I trust, too

July 2022

I have seen flowers come in stony places,
And kind things done by men with ugly faces,
And the gold cup won by the worst horse at the races,
So I trust, too.

John Masefield (1878-1967)
Mary invited me in from the rain
love tree
goodbye fruit suit
family porch portrait
Portrait of two friends on Grant Street
tree shadows
slushies
Deni just keeps getting better
look up at night
bike rack shadows
self portrait
Henry at home
Abbey at home
babies at the pool
Train portrait
family porch portrait
alone time
kid climbs
bird flies
friends
just graduated!
dinner with Tess above the table
dinner with Tess under the table
silent disco
silent disco
stair shadows
ceiling shadows
happy birthday!
portrait of bike
more exciting portrait of bike
happy girl at night
white truck
David at his spot
he asked for an egg and bacon sandwich and I happened to have one
self portrait
walking at Hoyt Lake
life of the party
going to Montana for a job
safe travels
Portrait of a family at home
moon with fireworks
fireworks at the round swing set
fireworks over Herkimer
George on the 4th of July
fireworks from the street
Three girls dressed up on the 4th of July
coming back from fireworks
just the kids, holding hands
friends on the 4th of July
Portrait of Mary
We looked at high graffiti and talked about how do they get up there?
surprise colors
three friends
Portrait of Nuuh
Scott with positivity
Matt knows his candy
street family, Dave, ?, CC, Duffie, Bashar, and Mr. T
look at this beautiful baby
Portrait of Delilah, I was lucky enough to be her teacher
Portrait of Boutros
friends loving friends
Portrait of Bucky
Kem and Tess saying goodbye
surprise colors
Mr. Softee
ice cream cone
neighbors
friends at night
friends during the day with the photo
this boy present day
self portrait
surprise colors
fixing the porch
Ellie on her birthday which is today
Portrait of Judy and Feather

You could make this place beautiful

June 2022

"Good Bones" by Maggie Smith
Life is short, though I keep this from my children.
Life is short, and I've shortened mine
in a thousand delicious, ill-advised ways,
a thousand deliciously ill-advised ways
I'll keep from my children. The world is at least
fifty percent terrible, and that's a conservative
estimate, though I keep this from my children.
For every bird there is a stone thrown at a bird.
For every loved child, a child broken, bagged,
sunk in a lake. Life is short and the world
is at least half terrible, and for every kind
stranger, there is one who would break you,
though I keep this from my children. I am trying
to sell them the world. Any decent realtor,
walking you through a real shithole, chirps on
about good bones: This place could be beautiful,
right? You could make this place beautiful.

when the heart

May 2022

"When the heart" by Michael Leunig

When the heart
is cut or cracked or broken
Do not clutch it
Let the wound lie open

Let the wind
from the good old seas blow in
To bathe the wound with salt
And let it sting

Let a stray dog lick it
Let a bird lean in the hole and sing
A simple song like a tiny bell
And let it ring

dark though it is

May 2022

"Thanks" by W.S. Merwin

Listen
with the night falling we are saying thank you
we are stopping on the bridges to bow from the railings
we are running out of the glass rooms
with our mouths full of food to look at the sky
and say thank you
we are standing by the water thanking it
standing by our windows looking out
in our directions

back from a series of hospitals back from a mugging
after funerals we are saying thank you
after the news of the dead
whether or not we knew them we are saying thank you

over telephones we are saying thank you
in doorways and in the backs of cars and in elevators
remembering wars and the police at the door
and the beatings on stairs we are saying thank you
in the banks we are saying thank you
in the faces of the officials and the rich
and of all who will never change
we go on saying thank you thank you

with the animals dying around us
taking our feelings we are saying thank you
with the forests falling faster than the minutes
of our lives we are saying thank you
with the words going out like cells of a brain
with the cities growing over us
we are saying thank you faster and faster
with nobody listening we are saying thank you
thank you we are saying and waving
dark though it is

I will love you, again

April 2022

The Thing Is

to love life, to love it even
when you have no stomach for it
and everything you’ve held dear
crumbles like burnt paper in your hands,
your throat filled with the silt of it.
When grief sits with you, its tropical heat
thickening the air, heavy as water
more fit for gills than lungs;
when grief weights you like your own flesh
only more of it, an obesity of grief,
you think, How can a body withstand this?
Then you hold life like a face
between your palms, a plain face,
no charming smile, no violet eyes,
and you say, yes, I will take you
I will love you, again

by Ellen Bass

New Yorkers

NYC April 2022